Bullied

I have had a hard time growing up and I have finally got enough courage to tell about it. Kind of stomp the fire out. This is my story:

When I was in kindergarten, I had a lot of friends. The last year of kindergarten before I started school, I started in an after-kindergarten kind of thing. Let's call it AK (After-Kindergarten). I lost some of my friends as they started school and some didn't go to AK. Kindergarten was big and AK was small, so everyone got closer and we discovered who we really were. I started hanging out with this boy, who didn't really had any friends. One day some boys started calling me mean things. Hurtful things. They knew the things they said were hurtful, but they didn't care. They even went so far, that they tried to poison me. I know 4-years old boys can't do much to you, but at that time I was scared. There were days where I hid myself.
Then I started school. I felt like I needed a fresh start. The start was all right and I made new friends. But I also made new enemies without even doing anything. I remeber they were 3rd grade boys and I was in pre-school or as we call it in my country grade 0. Some days they would chase me around school. Luckely I became friends with a girl from their class, who I think, they might have had a little crush on. Well, it stopped as soon as she was there. If that wasn't enough some of the girls from my own class, started threating me. I remember that I once sat on a swing and one of the girls said "if you don't get down from that swing, I will kick your head of your body,"
I still remember the words and it still gives me chills. I was scared. I didn't know what to do, so ofcourse I got of the swing.
In case you didn't already know. I am a redhead or a so-called ginger. People would make fun of me, when I walked down the hall. I remember crying whe nobody saw it. People would spit on me. One day I was sick and when I came back, someone had wrote "Bitch" on my table... That was in 4th grade.. I was 10. One day in 5th grade it all became too much and I decided to change school. I know I have made some mistakes on my new school. (Not bulling) but to be honest. I feel so alone.

This was my story. I havn't even told you how all that felt like and still feels like. I felt unwanted, not worthy to live, alone, left out. There are days where I just want to stay and bed and not come out for the next 24 hours. There are days where I feel like crying and there are days where I feel more alone than ever.. That is just some of the causes of bulling.

ATTENTION! : '


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