Love...

Dear beauty dolls...

There's something I've been thinking about for a while. Some of you will might think "she's only fourteen, soon fifteen, she should enjoy her youth", while others will be like "I totally understand her and I feel the exact same way". It really depends on which kind of person you are. I have for a while, been sitting and watching my friends go to parties, meet new people, flirt and fall in love. That bothers me as I haven't been able to go to parties and meet new people. And most of all. I havne't been able to fall in love. I have actually never been in love. I ask a lot of my friend if they've ever been in love and they all say yes. I have been attracted to guys and I have liked guys, but have never been in love. I don't know how it feels. Another thing that bothers me is, that people are always coming to me for love advice, but I can't really give them any advice, when I haven't had a boyfriend since I was 8 years old. A lot of my friends and people I meet always asks me "do you have a boyfriend?" and I always answer "no". After that they are like "Why not? You are so kind and beautiful. You are such a good person". But apparently, the guys I meet don't like that. When a guy do fall for me, it's always that annoying, too nice, no connection kind of guy that falls for me. All I'm asking for is a sweet, good hearted guy with a lot of love and humor. He must not be too nice and it's okay for him to be a bit bad boy-ish. It's okay for him to be like that as long as he does not act like it too much of the time. Some people will say "there's no such guy" while some will say "I know a guy just like that!". Well, so do I. One problem. I'm attracted to them. There's two, but I do not like them. I want to like at least one of them, but whenever I see them, there's no emotions. There's no doubt that if they started acting like they liked me and showed me that they had feelings for me, I would start getting feelins for one of them too, but as it looks like right now, there's nothing. Hmmm... I don't really know what else I can say. 

Love&Rockets